Firstly, yet again I am here with a big apology for the last weeks, as you probaly guessed from my last post, I had a loved one in the hospital, and was so grateful for the love shared within those walls. However after  that event my family and I were faced with a goodbye we were not expecting and a goodbye we never got to give, so I am dedicating this post to my father who sadly passed away, I have not been  able to write a post before today, not because I did not want to,but my thoughts have been all over,emotions are high and low, and my concentration is not at its best,I know what I should be doing and I know the stages I must go through,but it is not as easy as that.

I would like to say a big thankyou to everyone who has mailed me during this time, people who have given time and there thoughts to myself and my family to help and support us through this time. 

So how do we just carry on, it is a must,life continues,and it is probaly what the very missed person would want,but again easier said than done, we struggle with this,is it a form of guilt,should I being doing this, we question are actions,our thoughts,life is not the same,but we are supposed to just carry on, as if it was,as it is….I have had some very confusing moments,which I try to deal with one at a time. I am a very spritual person and feel and know that he is still here with us all, in another form but very present,he will always be with us, especially in our thoughts,I know we are in his.       

Helping myself to carry on I have written a letter to my father, to tell him everything I wanted him to know that I could not tell him before he passed, this has been really good for me,and if anyone reading this, finds  themselves in a similar situation i would urge you to do this, it is a wonderful way to express what you feel inside,what you would of said,and what you want to say,I have a feeling of inner peace,which in turn gives me strength to take one day at a time.

Thanking you all for your kindness and support.